The first line actually is really sad to me because it implies that he does that a lot. It implies that he hasn’t been talking to anyone, not Blaine, not Rachel, no one. And it says so much about his character too, because it’s showing he’s still insecure, and that he still automatically assumes that himself and his problems aren’t as important as any of his friends’. Rachel’s ‘me first’ attitude doesn’t help either and I could start a whole other rant on how her behavior is an influence to Kurt’s insecurities, but we’d be here forever. In any case I find it sad that he’s still hiding his problems.
TAKES THIS META AND HOLDS IT CLOSE man kurt always puts other people’s problems before his. even in the Quarterback he functioned mostly as a rock for other people, and barely had a chance to express his own grief. you’re right, it’s because he doesn’t think his feelings matter as much and it breaks my heart.
I don’t know if Kurt thinks his feelings don’t matter, exactly? Don’t always matter so much to some characters or under certain circumstances perhaps…and in this episode he was clearly feeling both*. But in general, I tend to think he considers his feelings private. Very private. And the universe Glee takes place in is explicitly, viciously hostile to privacy - look at the way every single secret** becomes public knowledge almost as soon as one person knows it, usually by means we don’t even see happening. Once they have hold of a secret, nobody in the Glee world is trustworthy (and yes, that ‘nobody’ includes Kurt himself, he’s as complicit in the system as anybody). So if Kurt has a choice between keeping his internal life totally private or having it made into public property against his wishes…it’s no surprise to me that, being an introvert and a private person to start with, he decides total privacy and isolation are the preferable option.
Another interesting thing though is the way he uses TV (and explicitly ‘reality’ TV) as a mechanism for working through his feelings, or for having a public excuse for them if he gets caught.
*And this of course ties back to the thread in ‘Old Dog, New Tricks’ about Kurt and mothering and his sense of being relegated to the role of the ‘mother’ within the ex-McKinleyites’ little group (Inside voice, Rachel!), and how mothering work is undervalued and mother figures are depersonalised into ‘support figures’ with no identity of their own…
**Oh, no, not quite. I forgot the one incredibly important counter-example: Ryder is still the only person at McKinley High who knows that Kitty is a sexual assault survivor. Well done, Ryder.
^I mostly agree, because yeah, Kurt’s a gossip, but he also knows when to keep his mouth shut (e.g. Karofsky’s sexuality, Sam’s homelessness).